Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving is tomorrow.

Despite everything, I’m still here feeling grateful.

I believe I’ll be ok…but I’m also learning to make peace with the possibility that things may not always go that way, and, well……. that’s part of the journey too.

Today my mind wandered to memories I didn’t expect. Just a year ago, we brought Mom home from the memory-care facility. Now Dad cares for her every day.

A year ago, I ran the Turkey Trot with my brother and had breakfast with him and the baby afterward. This year, I find myself in my home office, typing, feeling a strange mix of numbness and reflection…. Looking back at moments I usually try not to revisit.

I’m learning to rest on what’s here, right now.

I’m grateful for this connection.

I’m grateful for this space to write to process.

I’m grateful for another year.

I’m grateful even for the inevitable, whatever it may look like.

I’m grateful for the flexibility my employer gives me.

I’m grateful for the support of my new friend.

I’m grateful for my spouse and everything he carries and gives.

I’m grateful for the ability to hope and dream, because that’s what truly keeps me alive.